Admitting You’re on the Defensive!

2015-06-23-1435074425-9432117-ForgivenessImageDuring prayer requests, one of my girls in recovery (rehab) mentioned a specific need in her pod. Not a prayer request that was terribly detailed nor did it mean much to me personally, but I was sure it was directed at another person. She was on the defensive, struggling with her phrasing, unsure of her words. But asking for prayer just the same.

Then, during worship, she was led to approach this other person to clear the air. To make amends. To solve the problem.

Before she moved to speak with the other girl, the other woman made the first move. That’s right, the Lord led the other person to come and seek forgiveness as well, to speak frankly about whatever the issue was between them.

They prayed together, and were honest, and their issue went away as fast as it had become a prayer request.

I’d learn of this after our service this morning, after having gone through a much needed correction of my own this weekend. A correction, thankfully, that came from a dear pastor whom I adore, respect, and trust. Who disciplined me in love. And I needed it.

Thus, I repented. I had to. That was my only option if I am to please the Lord. I am a mess and get in the way a lot.

I was able to use my own brokenness, to direct my girls to scripture to guide them. They are entrusted to me, and I love them dearly. And I pray I live as a light for Christ before them.

I’m grateful tonight beyond measure, that I know of a pastor who trusts God enough to bravely adomoish me. I know I get caught in the tangles of life and things claw at my heart and they cause crevices of worry and ick.

So if you want to hang out where we studied, check out Psalm 40, the whole chapter. I love the part where it says in verse 10, “I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation.”

And then I go back to verse 3, “He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put their trust in the Lord.”

If I keep typing, I’ll end up sharing all of this chapter with you. For it speaks of help from God, of proclaiming God’s majesty, of delighting in doing God’s will, of His steadfast love, of His mercy and of our pleading for Him not to delay in deliverance! How He takes thought of us!

Yes, in the Bible as always, it is there I find peace and hope! And God speaks! And I can be forgiven!

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